Overall I'm not a negative person and I usually try to find the positive in every situation but as each month passes it seems to get harder and harder to find the positive when I see another negative pregnancy test.
This time around was no exception, and even with all the love and support I received from my family, friends and especially Chris I was definitely in need of some encouragement. This past Sunday morning, after Chris left for work (at 4:45am), I couldn't fall back asleep and as I was laying there an old song popped into my head. I began to sing through the words in my mind and almost immediately began to cry (AgAiN!). The words were exactly what I needed ...
If You want Me To
The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reasons why you brought me here.
But just because you love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.
Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet.
So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire if you want me to.
It may not be the way I would've chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone.
So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through