"If You want Me To"

Overall I'm not a negative person and I usually try to find the positive in every situation but as each month passes it seems to get harder and harder to find the positive when I see another negative pregnancy test. 

This time around was no exception, and even with all the love and support I received from my family, friends and especially Chris I was definitely in need of some encouragement. This past Sunday morning, after Chris left for work (at 4:45am), I couldn't fall back asleep and as I was laying there an old song popped into my head. I began to sing through the words in my mind and almost immediately began to cry (AgAiN!). The words were exactly what I needed ...

If You want Me To

Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear

And I don't know the reasons why you brought me here.

But just because you love me the way that You do

I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.

Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step

And I'm clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet.

So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You

Then I will go through the fire if you want me to.

It may not be the way I would've chosen

When you lead me through a world that's not my home

But you never said it would be easy

You only said I'd never go alone.

So when the whole world turns against me

And I'm all by myself

And I can't hear you answer my cries for help

I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through

And I will go through the valley if you want me to.

No, the pain and heartache did not and has not magically gone away but the words of the song and the verse below (that came to mind later that day) did make it a little easier to deal with!


Here is the song, if you would like to check it out!